The myth of cho

I told Simona last week that, because I believe that I am better than 90% of the population, I need my career and my accomplishments to reflect that.

Upon further reflection, might not the truth be the reverse of what I said? Do I want my innate extraordinarity reflected by my accomplishments, or do I need these accomplishments to affirm my supposed extraordinarity? Is it that I am driven by the need to fulfil my own individual myth?

Good thing Simona is around. I need to feel that I am important to myself, what's a better way to accomplish that than being important to somebody else?