I'm FUCKING pissed

Played horrible basketball tonight.

I never get to catch the ball where I like it, so I tried to play the point today. The experiment went terribly awry. I think I am quick enough to play the point against these guys, but I just don't have the handle to stay in control.

When I gave up and Adam played the point, I either catch the ball a good foot or two beyond the 3-point line, a No-Man's land for someone without 3-point range like me, or right under the basket, surrounded by half the team, picking off the pass at my ankle. What's worse, he has to cross over 15 times and fake 6 times before he delivers the pass at my ankle. He's just a horrible passer: doesn't seem to have the ability not to pass underhand, dribbles way too much and delivers the pass way too late and never on target.

My game is simply not utilized at all on this team. In order to be effective, I need to catch the ball between 15-17 feet, either on the move for live dribble or in triple threat for my mid-range jumpers. When I'm outside of my range, no one sets screens, not on or off the ball. Everyone on my team are one-dimensional "jump" shooters without inside games and I have no target for interior touch passes. When I do catch the ball within my range, my teammates, having no 3-point range, are so packed in that there is no room for live dribble in the paint.

Something has to change. I must improve my handle and range to gel with this team. Right now, my defense and energy, plus an occasional basket or assist, are the things that earn me respect form these finesse 40 year olds. But I know I can do more to help this team. I have good basketball IQ, I think I can move well without the ball, I don't need the ball in my hands constantly to be effective so pass me the freaking ball where I can do something with it!