I had just gone to poker hell, but I'm not sure if I've made it out yet.

It all began on Friday when I registered Poker Tracker. Friday afternoon was a great run, double tabled .5/1 all the way up to $140, ~$40 up since Thursday night. Lost a tournament in 5th place after dinner. Called Mark about the party at his house without a response, fiddled about, this and that, and then played my first 1/2 session. Down 7, up 1.5, down 6, then came the big wallop of down 25. Back to $105 for the day, 3 more dollars for 5+ hours of work.

Reformatted my hard drive Saturday, some .dll decided to stop working even after repeated cajoling and rebooting. Put everything back together, went to Ocean's 11 with Mark and Ed. Bought in for $50 at around 8:30, down to $8 before 11. Bought in for $40 more and ended up at $63, down $27 for the night (I thought I was down more than that at the time but come to think of it, I didn't do that badly--a fleeting moment of breeze in poker hell). Played a total of no more than 6 hands to the river. Playing tight naturally is no match for the shotgun method of the players there. Top pair with top kicker is just no good against gut-shot straights on the river. Bastards. The Mexican sitting to my right had no hand, literally. He made plenty of sets and flushes but had a stub for a left hand. On the way back we joked about how he would be perfect for a one-breasted woman.

Got back, finished installing newsbin and a couple of other things. Drank a beer and watched some net porn, somehow the pornography turned me on to some more poker. Just when you thought you were out, they drag you back in.

Few hours later, this is where I am. On tilt and down to $79. I swear, the deck had something against me. AKs, A2s, A3s flopped 3 cards of some other suit, AKo with A on board betting into a set, QQ flopped AAK, 99 flopped 555 and caught between a raising war (A5 against AA), ace high flush beaten by a straight flush, would someone please pity le fou?

I am still mad as hell. Goddammita;sdfp987324#!25o8!@#$#*O FUCK!