Heidi visited me today. Much were talked about, some serious, some lighthearted. Nostalgia, soul-searching, bantering, hysterical tickling and silent embrace all rolled into one. Somehow she always makes me feel that she has given me more than I have given her back--not guiltily but gratefully, in a I-can't-wipe-my-smile-off-of-my-face-hours-later kind of way. I hate to give her advice on how to leave Earnest because I really wish she does just that and make me feel like this everyday until God knows when.

I should have told her I love her when we walked to the car. I was afraid what that would've done so I didn't.